Alanis Morisette reveals she is struggling with postpartum depression after baby No. 3

goss 09/10/2019

Alanis Morisette is helping breakdown the stigma around new mums suffering from postpartum depression.

In a lengthy blogpost on her website, the 'Ironic' singer opened up about how she has been coping since the birth of her third child, Winter Mercy.

In the essay, she revealed that even though she tried to proactively avoid being taken down by the illness, she couldn't avoid it.

"I wasn’t sure if i would have post partum depression/anxiety this time around" she started her post.

Alanis went on to list just a few of the things she has felt since giving birth a couple of months ago.

"hormonal. sleep deprivation. fogginess. physical pain. isolation. anxiety. cortisol. recovery from childbirth (as beautiful and intense as mine was at home, dream birth.), integrating new angel baby with older angel babies. marriage. all kinds of PTSD triggers. overstimulation. this body. attempting to crawl back to some semi-recognizable configuration.some around my relationship with needing. reaching out. seeing how great i am at setting boundaries in some areas, but how blind-spot-ty i have been with them in others. reaching this point again where the sleeping giants of my survival strategies are being roused….the persevering. the soldiering. the show-up-no-matter-how-broken-things-feel-ing. yes, the addictions. in my case…work addiction—over-giving. over-serving. over-do-ing. over-over-ing."

Alanis goes on to recognize that she has "been here before" and knows "there is another side."

"The other side is greater than my PPD-riddled-temporarily-adjusted-brain could have ever imagined: as a mom. as an artist. as a wife. as a friend. as a collaborator. as a leader. as a boss. as an activist."

"I saw how things got richer after i came through it the last two times. i have my eye on that prize again … even as i drag my a— through the molasses. there is so much more support this time," Morissette writes.

"I knew better so i set it up to win as much as i could beforehand. support. food. friends. sun. bio-identical hormones and SSRI’s at the ready. some parts of the care-prep has been a godsend, and well-planned."

"But for all of this preparation - PPD is still a sneaky monkey with a machete - working its way through my psyche and body and days and thoughts and bloodwork levels," she admits, adding that despite the difficulties, "I have stopped, this time, in the middle of it. lord knows i don’t want to miss a thing … with my kids."